No title today......

Life can be so fragile.....kinda not feelin rite now.....unexplainable feelings....received a call from my cousin tis morn at abt 2am tellin my mom tat my aunt isnt feelin too good and my mom and i rush down to send her to the hosp together with my cousin.....lookin at her realli saddens me alot.....the once strong lady tat took kare of me has become so frail....she was so weak tat she couldnt even walk to her lift landing....pantin and pale lookin....she lost alot of blood and was feelin giddy.....the fear in her eyes....gosh i cant do anything to ease the pain....realli felt so useless....all we could do was accompany her and tok to her....attendin her needs....juz sad, down, and moody....wore my contacts for more den 20hrs got to bed at only 7am....my mom din even slp and had to work.........

I msg 3 peeps.....juz sayin 'hey gd mornin and have a gd day and blah blah' at ard 5plus......well.....these 3 peeps all gotta wake up early tats y i msg.....and only 1 sorta ask y i was up so early rite away.....tis is realli a true fren....my ROC pal....the other 1....ok cant blame cos dun think he's hp is on....the last one was e most disappointin 1.....but i kinda expected tat lah....but he did reply like 8hrs later....tis 3 smses sent out realli made me see things clearer.....pat u asked me once if i can take it if the guy wont be there for me all the time...well i noe the ans now....i dun think i can and i dun like it when i'm been taken granted for.....and prob cos i'm not lookin for a r/s now.....oh well.....tink i noe wat i'm feelin now.....ugly fugly....

Bummin' out.........chill