Massage to ease a bad day

Havent been doin anything constructive since thursday. been slackin. takin a break. recharging. apparently not enuff. din want to attend proj meetin today. mood wasnt rite, din want to affect others. as wat mickey told me ytd ' dun go to sch cos i sense tat u wont be alrite' well wth he's rite. good women's intuition eh i muz say. stayed away from sch 1 more day to go for a massage. rating abt 6/10? cant compare to spahaven. there's lots of tots in my punie brain but i juz cant seem to put it into words.

Matters of the heart is realli juz a small matter now...something else is boiling. definately not within my control. exams scheldue is out and i realli dun want to lose focus. I juz want to 'dunno dun kare dun bother' but can i?

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing youI
t’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know I gotta knowS
hould I stay or should I go?