Ponderings........of past......

Read tis if u are tat bastard in my life........
Juz backup all the photos i have in my com in case my com crash....have a feelin it will soon.....and came across an old pic.....me and 'j' pic.....gosh in tat pic we both were realli happy in cell but things juz have to turn out tis way.....i dunno wat God has plan for me but i'm juz takin a step at a time.....oh and i realised my hair grew lots! juz received an sms from him and i dunno wat he meant abt 'seein my true colours'....wat did i do wrong? seriously? yes i'm startin to move on, is tat a crime? u make it sound like i was the one tat cheated......u mean i have to continue waitin for a miracle to happen? i already gave up hope on 30th sept......u juz have to banish the little happiness in my life.....any opportunity of happiness tat come across me.....u juz have tis sixth sense to msg me and make me feel so affected u noe......yes u have tat power over me.....tat is one tat i cant get rid of which i tried for so long......y am i sayin so much.....u are not even readin tis......i dun have much hope on anything.....juz wanna feel happy now......with frenz and dates......u have ur life gng on and i dun even bother u.....no matter how much a bitch i am i will not break up a r/s which actualli belongs to me......so please leave me alone for now.....mayb frenz in time to come.....u'll alwayz have a place in my heart deep down even though u've done me wrong......yes tis is how stupid i am! a fool in exact........

~These words are my own.From my heart flown.I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you.There's no other way.To better say I love you, I love you...~

Bummin' out.......chill