Learn my ABCs again.Hangovers.Troubles.

Its the national day wk.....been watchin fireworks for the past 2 wks.....i'm crazy over fireworks.....tink when i die i want my ashes to be displayed as fireworks....hahaa.....and ytd was so darn packed! every corner is filled.....hate crowds.....muz be the public holiday.....families....couples.....everywhere....den gareth called and jio me to go zouk cos he got free tixs.....so head down with patsy to zouk......darn was in jeans and tee....1st time in slack mode gng to zouk....hahah....all e girls there were like in heels and all dolly wolly.....felt out of place but who kares......oh yeah.....drank again......mostly apple shooters.....broke my policy of not clubbin.....been drinkin alot lately....sharks wat has gotten into me? tink my liver's gng to give way soon.....probably juz wanna get drunk.....club on fri cos of SIM Bash.....was a good nite....abit hiccups here and there though....dun wanna tok abt it.....got pretty high too but still noe wat i was doin.....dropped a cup on the dance floor and everyone tot i was drunk....hahaha.....so overall......i've been DRINKIN alot! reflectin back.....i sound and look like a trouble deliquent....darn.......nvm deep down i noe y i've been drinkin whenever i have the chance.

Darn.....patsy and gareth got me into deep shit ytd at zouk! and they noe y! i dunno how to clear up the mess i have been ignorin and avoidin......OMG....and juz tok to lineng online.....looks like she is in some kinda shit too......hahaha.....we both have shits to clean up man! ARGH......

Frenster....hmm....good or bad....i dunno.....my itchy fingers made me click on 'j''s profile.....darn....he's still with tat girl....and happy together.....dunno y it still bothers me abit....juz a teeny weeny bit.....God how can someone's heart change tat fast? hmmm....think i deserve to be happy too.....twists and turns in life realli changes my mindset.....

Feelin so out of place nowadayz.....kinda feel i dun fit into this world.....i seem happy....but i think i'm not.....wat the hell am i tokin.....not sure.....juz need to ramble......tryin hard to fit into uni life.....gosh its so tough k.....things revolves quickly ard me....and i cant realli catch up.....dun think i'll ever be up for it....but i'll try i guess....i snooze i lose? is there such a phrase.....rambling rambling of nonsense.....

Oh yeah.....juz found out jo ann noes my SIM senior....and priscilla noe my edit fren.....gosh wat a small world.....and jo told me tat now i'm known as goofy....darn.....mayb i shld stop goofing ard....lol....be serious.....

All the tots accumlated these few dayz.......gotta figure how to clear my shit now.....darn....Jac suddenly i miss u alot.....can i fly over to stay with u and leave this selfish filthy place?

Bummin' out.......chill